I also go a little nuts, I play music, I mumble to myself, it's weird.
It's fun though, with the added bonus of being an unpaid artist, who most people think is wasting her life away on a dream that is never going to happen, I digress.
I hope if anything these post show you that you have to just push through the ugly and gross looking things to find some thing better. Also you don't need anything fancy to create. I use Walmart paint, and dollar store brushes.